Serving social beings has never become my forte!

After studying M.A. in Sociology from Bharati Vidyapeeth through SDL, Pune, and with a meager number as per the Indian Educated honchos all I could get is some absurd talks which do not fulfill me as a person. 

Altogether, I just could not make out that what the country is proud of where at times the Hindi heartland people fail in large numbers with their prime language Hindi and the other times my old school mates just could not keep away their bad stares.

Maybe it could be all because I did not take any half chances to catch their pride and which was never a kind of desire for me. Like any folklore within the country, the name "Mukesh Kumar" was considered to be a name that was not even the great for them as certainly, I do not belong to any of their categories where everything has happened since the Congress lost the power seat.

From mob lynching to various ways of torture getting inflicted on every possible people for all their odd aces the only thought is to consider the blabbering as a way to hide their past and pull the screen from silver to white for fulfilling their wishes against me.

I also feel a bit perturbed when I see the old Managers honking and nagging against me although that may not be true to some extent as when I see the faces of the managers they could feel a sense of immense pride for me.

Now, getting back to the thought of calling every odd person to the home for an evening tea and then listen from them "Wah Taj" or "Tata Tea ka Jawab nahi" does not make me any bigger as in the early childhood it was difficult for me to arrange everything including laying tables and serving every other person coming at home and in between the fight was always there with all kinds of brothers and sisters who were rarely or not nearly associated with us whether from near or far in terms of a relationship.

All it was because their set of beliefs was more or less like to know the behavioral mindset of the family of four whom Indians do not believe as per a big entourage without knowing that likely or unlikely the family has a good lineage.

I just could not understand the meaning of elders in terms of those who are from a set of pre-mature society and all they could do is to collectively laugh on others and once it is said and done they get back with their errands.

I remember one of the many incidents in life when for our family most of the aspect of life was to be under strict adherence and then till date people have to say that ye log bandhan me rahe hae..which I feel absolutely O.K.

Now, the other thought is that serving social society has never become my forte and I feel proud about it as somewhere down the line when I see my old friends over the internet and they still remember me neither as a captain nor as a cook but a person willing to do their little bit of work whether official or unofficial without getting too much of touchy-feely helps me to do any work without any thought of bondage or maybe tight rope all along my body.

I just feel O.K. with the fact that with all those people who were on both sides of relationship including maternal and paternal and few of the friends who just could not match an eye to eye with me I complete feel satisfied by those who were good with me and helped me to carry my life duties with ease.

I could only say that my head never hung with shame as I never went into any form of sexual relationship with any of my sister, brother, family or friends apart from the girl who was into my life and this helped me to feel ease rather than taking the evil way of fucking once,,, fucking again and that is the biggest satisfaction.

Although, with no patronage of any entity which could be someone who may be another person of a villainous sort who has created a rift within the families and then grinning from ear to ear could be a style of some personality who could be another demonic man and as per my belief smiling and laughing is also a behavior which is inculcated me although I never got into killing or blackmailing anyone for a penny.

So, till date life has been very fulfilling and those who go with the wind sail better and against the wind needs a very courageous effort for which the person could be seen or maybe known to be with fulfilling dividends but in this world hiding oneself is something which is difficult and then what remains with us is our deeds which may be good or bad so thankfully from social studies till sociology the subject has been an eye-opener and will continue doing so in my life!