I never enjoyed my wife's company as she was an overhype personality!

I never enjoyed my wife's company as she was an overhype personality- If this is my thought for the day then it is very true in my life. Most of the time in my life she was very much like a character akin to a devdasi from any Bengal village. The way she use to behave as if she is born to do all the sewa or sacrifices for me and no much of an asking personality who have to get all the things bright and beautiful for me.

She was good with me for the first two years of marriage but never had a wish to settle down in my life and all I could say is that she created much of void and a sense of trauma in my life. She was good when it comes to sex but was always over the phone maybe due to some personal or professional commitments and her stipulated time frame in my life was only for the three months after which she use to runaway to her village.

It was difficult to cope with her for me and my mother and in spite of making the home a better place to live I just could not find a comfort in her arms. It was more or less like a life full of suffocation where I thought to be a person with less significance in her life and it felt as if the family of hers must be having some ulterior motives which was not understood by me.

The brother and sisters of the wife were more or less the same who thought of making me feel smaller or pygmies which is called dwarf before them and for them education or an educated mind was insignificant.

They were neither good in terms of behaviour and if ever I visited her house at Arrah, Bihar which was known to be her native village and also it was my own native village still I could not find any better match between us. There I used to feel all alone and it use to seem that she has lots of extra marital affairs and I was aghast to see that my respectful neighbour also visited her home at Arrah on the pretext of having some ulterior kind of relationship which was not to be understood by me.

So, with all these thoughts I could feel that even after having a kid with her things just could not change in our life and the way things wind up was a separation from where she got much of the benefits from our better family as it turned out to be her purpose of life. But what I could make out was the way the same set of friends from my school, earlier city where I stayed during childhood and various other uncles who were near to me got into sexual relationship with her and that completely made me feel bad about myself and I could never get into any other affairs making me feel relationship status between man and woman to feel redundant without any love in between the souls.