My classmates have done so much for me without asking for Payback!

If I say that my classmates at Holy Cross, Bokaro Steel City irrespective of section which was Section-A, B & C where-in I was in Section B has done so much for me that I can never payback to them. Irrespective of my father being a bit harsh on me at times only and far better than those fathers  who just let their son and daughters set free in life where they took all the evil paths and probably degraded themselves my father was always better in-front of such Mai-Baap.

My father was good in terms with making me feel good and at times took the entire family to Cinema hall and even we enjoyed a good picnic on 1st of January. The small gesture of his has given me enough strength in life at times and that was enough for me to get into the mode of being self-reliant in every possible ways.

Now, getting back to the thought as my classmates have done so much for me without asking for payback that I never felt alone at school premises and as it happens that sometimes boys and girls are single out during the games period and any other co-curricular activities but it never happened with me. 

Their encouraging words which use to come in the form of applause to make me feel like a Hero and that use to give me some ecstatic moment of joy which just cannot be explained. Their lifestyle could be said something very much of flamboyance and style and many of the girls and boys were akin to the style divas and models. 

Although, I was of a mediocre height but it never weighed on my mind on the other hand the neighborhood was full of those Uncle, Aunts and their children who had a permanent grudge against me. They just never feel delighted about my presence and the constant murmuring and the pranks which was bad on my part had always given me a deep scar in my thoughts and at times I sue to feel heartbroken.

The entire life during the childhood at any of the Sectors of Bokaro Steel City was a feeling of getting fucked left, right and center and it use to seem to me as an endless trauma where neither I sue to feel good about the presence of people around me and neither ever tried to get pally with them.

It could be said that most of the time my life was within a good breathing space at my school and at home I was feeling only good within the company of my parents and the only sister.

Although, one could say that as a children before Class Xth we were not into any particular star studded performance in the class and neither care about anybody getting some good or bad marks into any subject as we were all into a good mode of learning sports along with other co-curricular activities.

Also, the school bus which use to carry us to the school use to take at least one hour as the school was on the outskirts of the city but it never made us feel bore as the entire fun was a part of the travel and the only demarcation was between the girl and the boys seat which made less interaction with girls.

So, one could say that in spite of the neighbors being bad towards me as because even when I tried to get near to them related to any sports all they could do is that fight with me creating utter sense of dissatisfaction and most of the time there way of life was to make me a target of all jokes which made an unnecessary pressure on me.

On the other hand my lifestyle at home was fulfilled with good food and fruits which gave me enough happiness and their was less of issues apart from the complains of my mother who always expected me to be good in terms of studies which could make me feel bad at times.

The other great thing was that my father never use to drink in front of us and was not a habitual drinker that has given us some better ways to enjoy the life as a drinker husband, fighter wife creates much of the pain in life.

So, all in all I remain thankful to my friends at school who stood thick and thins in my life and because of them I never felt any way to be small or neglected on the other hand I always feel that if only the neighborhood would have been good then it would have added more better aspect to the life but as it is said that God does not give fruits in both hands to make us understand the world better and lead a fulfilling life!