I undertood the difference between "Auqat" and "Astitva" in early Childhood!

Considering oneself to be bigger than anyone else in the world is the worst thing in life. Since I took birth in a small city but never saw any Warsaw like situation in my city where anybody uses to annex any other person's property except few riots like 84 which was less understood by me. Although, the childhood which I saw was certainly all about hearing and reading books like Competition Success Review and Pratiyogita Darpan which was not necessary at the time when students are engulfed in comics books. Also, the books of the likes of Dharamyug and India Today we're a part of my bookish language because my father served at Bokaro Steel City libraries which were under the Bokaro Steel City Plant, Town Administration for four to five years while I was in the age gap of 7-14 years. Also, few books like Manorama and Grihsobha were not within my reach and although it was bought to home by my father in any case if I use to go through such books I was heavily reprimanded by my mother.

After a few years, my father went back to work under the steel plant and such books become out of reach but they considerably made me understand the Indian political Scenario although much about 84 riots was in front of my eyes as few incidents such as riots and burning were seen by me with eyes of a small boy who has to rush towards the Grandparents house with my mother and sister as the father was in office at that time and the mother got somehow afraid to stay back at the home which was preferably allowed to us by the steel plant. Apart from that as the word of mouth spread so the stories about arson and loot were all to become a part of storytellers who were around the society,

Now, leaving this behind and coming back to the statement which says that I understood the difference between Auqat and Astitva in early childhood since my father sends me to a better school which has people from all strata of life. The students were from business class and also from service class which is employed people I never face any particular incident which could create much of a problem in the school.

Although my school results were as par the above-average students still for the subject which I was not any inclination and that remained Mathematics I use to get beaten black and blues after the term exams use to get over. Still, I use to love my own existence and most of the time keep to myself instead of getting inclined towards any particular classmate or the girls in society and avoided going to their birthday parties. It could lead to much of the difference and the guy who used to take the girls in stride was the very mediocre one who was much of hooligan in character with their upbringing and probably could have seen their father portray the same behavior. If I remember certain people whom I would not like to name they were more or less like getting along with girls every time and on the other hand I portrayed much of a person who was either in his own thoughts or a hefty character who use to give sharp replies if any boy or girl use to speak absurd about me.

Also, if any person who reminded me constantly about fighting for my own existence then he was my father who used to say that for the roti or bread one has to do a lot more hard-work rather than whiling away the time. Thankfully, he was a hard taskmaster and taught me seriously about giving respect to the managers and work ethics when he saw me going wayward in my life at any certain point. He also made me understood the importance of the word "Auqat" when I said this particular terminology to one of my friends in the class and for that, I had to repent a lot till my father stayed with me. Also, he reminded me that one has to have his own house as the home provided by the SAIL Authority is short-lived and it will get back to the company after his retirement. That is the reason I immediately bought my own home at Ajnara Integrity, Ghaziabad with little savings as I was working most of the time under different capacities at various offices in Noida and Ghaziabad. Might be that maybe the reason I spend a little and save for tomorrow along with do not feel proud about my achievements and at the same time do not rush to propose any girl and wait for many many years even to have my bodily needs fulfilled because I know my Auqat better than anyone else on this earth!