I made a habit of staying indoors in my life!

When I was a kid and staying at Bokaro Steel City whenever my father and mother use to go for marketing or watching a movie at times they locked me and my sister at home and easily went on their scooter. The thought which made them easy was that both the boy and girl are wise enough not to create any issues apart from pulling each other's leg.

When we started growing up the kids in the vicinity started mistreating us easily and found one or the other excuse to give me different sorts of blames. Apart from coming from good family background, I was treated very badly or worse than an animal by those people who loved their own growth in every aspect of life. The day if I use to get into sports at gully level which is in the neighborhood people use to push and shovel me away easily in the name of being united.

It was easy for them to create a nuisance on the sports field and put the blame on me if bowled well in cricket. Also, the same was with football, when I did a few goals the next day people use to abandon the game for a few days and then created the same weird stories. Also, I did not have any weird lifestyle where I could smoke or drink, and having sex with the neighborhood was not my forte.

The same people who were habitual with each other in terms of sex could be found to be compatible easily in each others company and even after my marriage, it was easy for the woman in my life to resort to various ways of sex with the same boys and girls who were preferred by her. Even as a left alone person I survived easily but was always a person who was easily a target of people mocking about me.

I am thankful to all my schoolmates and teachers whether senior or junior at Holy Cross, Bokaro Steel City who never tried to thrash me or beat me as without their support I would have not survived in my life. My life was more or less like me standing at one corner and all the people swarming over me just like a game of rugby where the person holds the ball and people try to overrun him.

Also, the game which was all about settling the scores was carried forward by their parents where Mr. Rukhiyar, Mr. Verma, Mr. Sinha, and various others from the vicinity or let's say everyone person from Bihar had a special dislike for me.

This continued to date and in the name of social distancing it was all I could bear are the disgruntled youth and the young age girls just trying to make me a cynosure of their eyes to further make me a mockery in the eyes of their boyfriends. So, all it was like making them feel easy to various ways for their sexual arousal and once their wish got completed the next it was easy for the society to make a mockery of me.

People who are of the likes of Sri Aakash Sahay. Mr. Jacky Tiwari. Mr. Bitto, Mr. Jitu, and may others who considered themselves to be more privileged in one way or other where their parents use to support them in all cases of misdeeds and hurled abuses on me. Their mother's also used to speak all the bad words which were like making an easy mockery out of my life.

In the same way, my cousin's brothers and sisters use to carry the same habit and all I could find myself to be all alone in this world which made me into a very complex scenario and thus I made a habit of staying indoors in my life but never went towards ruining others life in any of the ways whether sports, recreation or studies and even at any possibility of helping any person I was the first one considering it to be my forte!