To talk about my childhood life when I was under the strict guidance of my parents along with my adolescent age I was a boy who was given strict supervision under my parents. It was not because my father tried to keep me under his own thought of discipline but it was necessary as Bihar was originally a crime-infested state and the Bokaro Steel City, was under various Bhumihar groups who use to go for clashes to prove their supremacy.
Also, my schooling was totally under C.B.S.E, English Medium which was affiliated under Holy Cross and certainly I considered myself to be a well mannered and at the same time understanding my own mentality where at any cost I could not get near to the people who did not match my thoughts. If the neighborhood was noisy I use to keep quiet, if it was volatile I use to fight tooth and nails and one thing which was in my mind was to fight back in games as well as in life after every day of my struggle.
My father used to keep me away from any group of boys and girls as I was always into various books which were up to the level of Pratiyogita Darpan and Competition Success Review even during the Class 5 to Class 8 when my father was serving the Bokaro Steel Library and occasionally we use to go for watching the movies at Cinema Hall as we did not buy Television at home and the only things which were giving me the company were books from India Today, Saptahik Hindustan and also various other books like Suman Saurabh and Nandan but no comics was provided to me.
On the weekends few of my father friends and relatives use to come to my home who were more in touch with my sister and none of them use to talk to me as I kept away from them and use to sit by my father's side with no thought of playing with them. Also, the moment they use to come we have to touch their feet which were even to be done if they were wearing shoes which were a custom in Hindu community. If I use to shake hands with them they use to make faces and was the common slang ka ho angrez banaiba ka which was the common word by T.N. Pandey and Radhey Shyam who use to gorge food at our home and it was my dutiful mother who use to make a large number of food items for their entire entourage.
Gradually, I started staying aloof and it helped me to get inclined towards more of study of literature but after passing out class Xth in the year 1996 there were only two schools in the entire city which were providing education in Arts. One was St. Xavier's and the other was D.A.V out of which I disliked to join St. Xavier's and D.A.V was the one which I personally got afraid about joining. On the other hand every year all the Uncle from my mother's ancestral home use to visit which was very annoying for me.
So, if anybody tries to remind me of my childhood days I usually think that none of them have been that close to me and have neither given me any love and happiness so it is better to discard them and keep myself away from them rather than enjoying their company. When I see at them I find that I have never been that close to hurt them physically, mentally or socially and if I have completed my Post Graduation of M.A, in Sociology, along with other exams in my life it has been done through my own efforts and not because anybody has taught me any grammar-translation. So, if I have learned anything in my life it is because of my own efforts as most of them have tried in every possible manner to harm me at various instance my beating me enough for which I have been bearing such assaults in my life since childhood while on the other hand, they have been doing all sorts of harm to themselves by keeping themselves away from studies for which certainly I am not responsible.
It is better to understand that since we have made enough or rather my mother has given enough free food to people so we do not want that as I stay with my mother and no-one else I do not personally favor anyone to think about having something or accompanying me to give me their own piece of mind rather than also I am not concerned in enjoying anyone of their company which certainly is questionable as they have the afterthought of any sexual favors granting to them and neither accepting from them.
So, let your own thoughts prevail in your own mind as I have much to think about my own future and as far as my job is concerned i always paid much respect to people untill they crossed me in a wrong manner!
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